Asking for Help

As you can tell, I am getting more and more excited about the baby coming because I keep posting more and more about him. Sorry to those that find this boring but I figure it is better reading than me complaining about work.

I have heard all the stories about how you must ask for help and take advantage of it when you can after the baby is born. You are not being selfish, you will need the time to sleep, get away from the baby, be a person other than mom, etc. This is turning into a fear for me now.

As most of you know, I usually don't ask for help. At work, I take on too much and have to be in a real bind before I ask for assistance. Same with at home. Ryan may beg to differ (he probably thinks I have no problem asking him to do things for me) but in the scheme of things, I try not to ask people for help if it's something I can do. Well, I have a feeling that once the baby comes, I am going to need help but be afraid to ask for it since I never do it now.

I don't think asking for help is a sign of weakness, I just think it is a control issue for me. With that said, I also think part of my control issue is I don't do well with change or the unexpected and having this kid is definitely going to be a change and unchartered territory. I know in my head people have kids all the time. I know that my life won't change 100% but will it be more than I bargained for? I guess we will find out in a few more weeks. Until then, I must keep telling myself everything is going to be ok.